The Pandemic Is Making Me Quit My Job and I Need to Talk About It

Lockdown’s forced meditation has changed everything

Photo by Romain V on Unsplash

I’ve worked in offices for nearly 20 years. Except for some retail and factory work when I was young, it is all I’ve ever known.

We are living in a corporate world and I am a corporate girl. Well, boy.

What’s worse is that I’ve always loathed it, the office. I saw it as a declaration of my lack of courage and adventure. Corporate work is a path beaten by others, it’s the spoon-fed treadmill, the safe and obvious choice.

They say the opposite to bravery is conformity, and don’t I know it.

And I think I’d have continued in office work forever if it wasn’t for two things that happened.

I Turned 40

I’ve had an ongoing existential crisis for most of my life if I’m honest. It’s a running joke between me and my friends, but 40 amplified this crisis as you’d expect, it pumped it up, gave it urgency.

I heard there’s no such thing as a midlife crisis, just a midlife awakening.

And boy, have I woken the fuck up.

Whatever way I cut it, I’m almost certainly in the second half of my life and I want to start choosing differently…